Somewhere. Sometime.

Set the table for me. I'm ready to meet you.

It's 3 o'clock in the afternoon and I've got nothing to do. So I ended up writing something that will ease this boredom. I always have this sole time whenever the clock ticks at 3pm. My mom opens the store and my dad goes to his work. My siblings are often out for they have their own jobs. So I always have this tendency to spend time alone in our house. Somehow I find it good, this some time alone. But actually, I really don't like this feeling. Whenever I'm alone I tend to think of things which are not supposed to be thought. 

I can say that I'm blessed with a happy family. Although at times we experience problems, well that's normal. I'm the youngest, so it's not new that I'm always left at home. The mess are always left to be cleaned by the youngest. Oh My! But few months from now, I'm no longer staying long at home. I'll be soon looking for a job and when I already got one, I will surely give back to my parents. And of course, I would always like to make and spend time with my friends. Because if there are people who never left me and who had been there in my happiest and toughest times, they are my family and friends.

But then, I always find myself looking for something, for someone. That feeling when you know there is someone who loves you more than a friend, someone you would want to build a family with. That person is yet to be found. I don't know if I already met him or I just let him passed by or he is already here but I just didn't notice him. I really don't know... I would love to see his face, hold hands with him, spend time with him, get the chance to meet his family, and he meet mine. Go out on a date, hang out with our friends, watch a movie together, sing along, eat fishballs in the street, have some pictures together, and say I LOVE YOU to each other. 

I'm ready to meet that person. I might be hard to please, but hey, I'm not so hard to reach. I will take time until the day comes I will finally meet you. So see you somewhere, sometime. :)

The pain of the uncertain

Who would have want to live in the world of uncertainty? Would you enjoy life if you're just starting something and then everything ends without even knowing why and how? If there is something that some people are afraid of, it's the unsure. 

Crazy, this feeling that people can't deny when they are in love. But how could you really tell that you're already in love? Well, there is an anatomy that tells you you're on that track. Typical ways like, thinking about that person every moment. Take note, that every moment means the whole time, the whole day. Imagining the lead character in the movie you are watching is him/her. You oftentimes consider the songs you hear and relate it into your own lovestory. And when the two of you cross your ways, your heart skip a beat. These may not be the signs of being in love for everybody, but maybe and mostly for some.

So how long could you be in love? Maybe some serious people would say, "I could love a person forever." That's usual--wanting a relationship to last a lifetime. But what's more interesting question is, how easy could you fall for someone? Does a person need to pass through the courtship stage before making you fall for him or falling in love starts from the first time you met each other? Could you possibly fall for someone whom you just met or for someone who has been a friend of yours for years? Do days really matter on how fast you have fallen for a person? Well, these are just the questions I have in mind.

The feeling of being in love is undeniably a happy feeling most especially if both of you feels the same way--that's sweet. How about dealing with uncertainties? Hm... that's tragic. Uncertainty gives you a lot to worry about. You could enjoy it from a moment but eventually everything would turn out hurtful. You don't have the right to demand, to get hurt, and to question, since everything is uncertain. The feeling is undecided, same goes with your title. The label was clear and yet the emotions are untrue. Everything seems to be a whirlwind of thoughts but in due time, things would be clear. Maybe, in God's time.

Life is not a fairytale, it's a reality.

We must have read fairytales when we were little kids and watched romantic love stories in our mature age. Undeniably, most of the girls have dreamt of a man who is exactly the same on what they have watched or read. Well, there is nothing wrong in dreaming about someone who’s ideal. Wishing that as much as possible, you would like to have someone who has admiring qualities. This might be the influence of the forms of media. We are blinded by the reality. We kept on looking for something which is not even there in the first place. Hence, we must appreciate what we have in the present. Life is not a fairytale that you could wish something from a genie or a fairy godmother to have this and have that. Life offers you reality. What you want may not be what you need.

People make their own destiny. We must not entrust it from signs and make believes. It is a matter of weighing the truth and the illusion. Though it was never wrong to dream of something big, but of course knowing its limit is an important issue.  Life is a long narration of experiences and consequences, so thus in love. What we have now is a product of the actions that we take and decisions that we make. So better not to live with the dream which is not meant to make you happy. Dreams can be sometimes cruel to the point that you were blinded on what’s not real. Dreams should serve as your inspiration, reminding you on what you want to achieve.

-Just my opinion. Think it over.

Thinking it over...

I’m not really into blogging. Maybe this is because, I’m a busy person who spends most of my time doing household stuffs when I’m at home (Yes that’s true) and when I came home from school, I really don’t Internet a lot. My most spent time in front of my laptop is every time I work with our manuscript and some paper works. I do also have a Twitter and Facebook acct. but I rarely open it, sometimes just to upload some photos and update a status or tweet. But this was before… Until one day, I felt like I need to speak it out. Yes, I have and I make time for everything that I do– from the moment I wake up until the time I come to sleep. And now, there is something new that I would like to add on my to-do list, and it’s THIS.

So welcome me in this World. I have a lot to say–my learnings, pain, and happiness.  :)